The Dreaded "What if"

I was looking around my socials the other night and had a thought. I couldn't quite remember when I decided I wanted to pursue software.

I decided to check out my youknowwhat app(sorry everyone) because I remembered posting about attending Leon's 100 Devs bootcamp. It was completely free and very well organized. I remember loving every second of it. The new challenges were super exciting for me.

Life decided to get in the way. Work ended up getting pretty busy and I was traveling a lot for work. I was previously an electrician. Eventually I fell out of my routine of attending and unfortunately never finished the bootcamp. I still beat myself for not just pushing through and finishing. I see some folks that actually completed the bootcamp and they have been successful with their journeys. Not to say the journey is ever easy!

It was difficult for me the other night thinking back, "What if I would have stuck with it back in 2022?" Where would I be right now? Would I have a role already? Would my wife and I still end up out here in San Francisco? What would life be like?

This isn't to complain about my life. I love my life, my wife, and my pups. I just can't quit thinking about where I would be now. Luckily, like I stated before, I can take a deep breath and remember I live in one of the most beautiful places I've been. I have an incredible relationship with my wife(Shout out to my badass wife!!). I have healthy dogs that drive me crazy sometimes but I love them to death. Life is good even throughout the struggle and I just need to remember that.

LIFE IS GOOD.

Been struggling lately mentally and didn't know if putting my words out there would help. Very short post but I don't really think it needs to be any longer. I actually think I got what I needed out of this.

LIFE IS GOOD EVEN THROUGHOUT THE STRUGGLE.

Peace & Love friends!